Why is it so hard to find someone that loves me for me? I don’t understand what I do wrong. I’m polite and respectful, I’m honest and I don’t pretend to be something I’m not. I cook, clean, and I don’t complain about stupid shit. I give great massages, I’m a great listener, and I give the best advice I have. I haven’t been in a real relationship since May 2010, and everyone still tells me that I need to give myself time and figure out what I want. I know what I want, the problem is that I’m not what anybody wants. It’s so difficult to not let others’ opinions of me affect my opinions about myself. I’m starting to hate myself again. All I hear is “Just be yourself”. I AM MYSELF, ALL THE FUCKING TIME. That’s apparently the fucking problem with me. I see all these fake girls online, striving to be something they’re not, and they have guys throwing themselves at them. All I have ever hear from guys is “I just want to be friends” or “I just see you as one of the guys” DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT FUCKING HURTS, to hear it over and over and over from men you fall for?
That’s all I have to say for the night. Goodnight followers and friends.